We’re at the point in evolution where we need to take energy very seriously. Our cell memory is our inner compass to discernment and once it is cleared, cleaned and released, we then become an embodied tuning fork to detect non- beneficial energy in the field. As a result, we are creating our own cleaner inner power or “Source” of organic energy to self-sustainability. This roots us into our true nature, reclaiming our Free Will so nothing can interfere in our field our energy. Only then are we one with our Original Organic Source and able to free ourselves out of enslavement.
Unfortunately, the war on consciousness is a fact and we must understand how our parasitic world is running rapid which influences the integrity of our inner – organic alignment. When we are out of balance the collective eco system thrives on organisms (it’s host) and benefits by deriving nutrients at the host’s expense. This results in handling people by using deceptive inorganic by-waves to stimulate sensation in the body’s cell memory, and producing an action that sabotages a person’s life, in turn making them their own weapon.
Note: According to Wiktionary a handler, “One who handles something (especially manually) or someone. The handler of a weapon gets a symbolic sensation of deadly power.” A handler seduces at any cost, to get their lower needs met. They justify their actions to entertain defeating desires.
Lower vibrations allow people to be handled and consumed. The handler knows exactly what to do or say, to feed off their vulnerabilities. Each bite pulls people into their game, profiting from emotions and sensations the body produces. This results in pain and suffering or thirsty desire. Their main courses are trauma, emotional wounds, fear, sexual seduction, fabricated boundaries, superiority, authority, greed, selfish actions, and any other form of emotional capitalization to fuel their parasitic bank account.
Our mission in life is to acknowledge our own inner habitual thinking production line and use this as a poly into infinite possibilities.
Every fleeting thought opens accumulated doors ready to free us or entangle us. As the energy speeds up and timelines collapse, we will be shown at a faster pace, the inner-influences to have the foresight to change our compass if needed.
By doing so, we must see where we leave ourselves open. Where do we allow non-beneficial energy in our lives? Where are we handled? Going forward what are we going to invest in?
My investment came at a high price. Starting from a life-threatening tragedy, I endured almost twenty years ago, I barely made it out alive. Fortunately, I made it, but I was chemically injured from Western Medicine. Ever since, any kind of chemical, candles, perfumes, etc. makes me very sick. Due to the chemical injury, I haven’t taken any drugs for the horrible pain I endure. Therefore, I spent the last sixteen years venturing into the energetic healing arts. I learned reiki, went to gurus, yoga, I attended years of energy and medical intuitive workshops, practiced tai chi, learned scanning and energy implant removal, went to mediums, tarot and angel card readers, participated in drumming, chanting, meditation, goddess, pagan circles, eastern modalities, shaman visions quests, (sweat lodges) and soul retrievals etc. I was naïve. I did not understand energetic boundaries, I had no idea the opportunist infestation breeding within and among me. I found out the hard way. It has been a huge learning curve.
I was gullible and lacked discernment. Several practitioners were amazing. I finally experienced relief from cranial sacral and myofascial release treatments. The bewilderment came when I had a couple of massage therapists and physical therapists, insert me with sexual implants. My sexual energy would surge through me like a strike of lightening. I felt so alive. At the time, I had some pain relief and I appreciated their support, but l came out of the sessions very confused. I was wondering why I had the sexual urge to be with them. Thank God, I had a strong will and I never acted on my sexual sensations. When I conveyed my sexual urge to their attention they told me they removed my sexual blocks, which may be the case. Nevertheless, their false light “healing energy” hooked into my sexual vitality and took me for a pipe dream. I became a feed for their sexual fantasy farm factory. Without realizing it, I was tagged, with a form of possession over me. Once tagged, it takes enormous amount of energy to untangle from these lower vibrational corridors. I did not allow them to work on me anymore. Yet, on some unconscious reality, I let them in. Then a couple of my friends, had similar experiences too. I have seen where men have been hooked also by this. It works both ways.
Fortunately, during my years of energetic mishaps, I continued my daily practice of Vipassana meditation. I loved it because there was no middle man involved. No interference. I felt deeply empowered. As a society, we need to take out the middle man and become self-sustained. However, as we know, it is a process and until then, we may need support. Yet, how do we move through these corridors without out being subjugated to other people’s hooks, foreign energy, and viruses, entities, parasites and handlers?
As we know everyone has shadow energy and there conscious/unconscious patterns determine the different vibrations people accommodate.
Like myself, I had no idea as an empath I was absorbing false light energy, driven by the hero archetype mind set, while falling trap to sacrificial time lines.
What we don’t understand is within the shadow are layered blind spots with parasitic nesting with new eggs ready to hatch. If we don’t become aware of our lack of inner-integrity and the choices we make, we open ourselves up to infestation. We are to become like children again to transform the energy. The purer the heart, the purer the energy integrity, which has the inner strength to collapse all time lines infested with in-organic realities.
Therefore, we must be aware of the people we ask to support us in our lives. Notice their actions, loyalty, heart intelligence, discernment skills, years of meditation, their knowledge, diet, experiences, do they have energy etiquette and understand energetic boundaries? Do they understand sacred space? Notice their marketing agenda’s. Do they honor you or use you? Do they use numbers to qualify, or use emotional manipulation to pull you in? Do they seduce with their energy? Is there a hierarchical structure? Do they use their authority to intimidate? Do they make false promises? Is it about quality or quantity? Are they determined to be number one, compete, exclude, and criticize or slander other people or teachers? Or, are they lovingly strong and gentle without agenda’s or ego based?
It’s okay to have different views, yet if concur and divide tactics are involved then the gates of domination and control have entered. This consumes the person with polluted false power with the unconscious belief that there is not enough to go around. Verses expanded awareness with synergistic pure power with absolute trust knowing there is infinite, bountiful energy for everyone.
As I wrote this blog, it was interesting how clients shared their frustration. They told me someone said they can remove all their implants in 15 minutes. Another person was scammed for a large amount of money to save her pet. Some of these scammers won’t allow PayPal or credit cards they want cash. Just notice…these are red flags. These people usually are opportunistic who appear charming and well-spoken and don’t have your best interest in mind. They’re chameleons, controlled to deceive and they have both conscious or unconscious agenda’s, with distortions driving their inorganic machine.
I have seen energy practitioner take classes, learn different modalities, yet they don’t take time to clean their energy seriously. They go from one client to the next without clearing the field. This causes an energetic mess for all involved…especially if the practitioner is sexually out of balance. It’s like going from one used car salesperson to the next. It is also heartbreaking to see how these handled practitioners water down or copycat original or ancient modalities for their agenda.
A good example is our food supply. A GMO tomato tastes different that an organic tomato. By changing the seed, it no longer carries the authentic energy signature and poisons everyone that takes a bite which produces an overlay of contamination in the field.
Also, keep in mind since we’re all from the same collective mind, and we’re also receiving similar information through downloads to wake this planet up. The authentic practitioner will give credit, where credit is due, including their name as an alternative resource. Unfortunately, these handled practitioners don’t have the ability to create their own processes so they piggy back and use other people’s information as their own.
Also, be aware of mind altering drugs, they open huge doors for inter-dimensional entities to invade the practitioner. It is common sense, everything has an energy signature, our actions of smoking or ingestion produces abortion and assimilation in the body. What frequency do you want in your body? Steve Richards from Holographic Kinetics explained the worst realities are mind alternating drugs. Not just street drugs, marijuana and Ayahuasca. He had case study after case study, that the people who have taken mind alternating drugs including alcohol are the most invaded.
If the practitioners have lower vibrational thoughts, then needs and actions of impurity becomes a vibrational match for parasitic infestation thus polluting the practitioner. Parasites jump from one person to the next, yet they can only stick if there is vibrational match just like fly paper or Velcro. It is a learning curve to understand the traps out there.
Another red flag I have heard from clients are the false promises. One client told me her practitioner removed and showed her how to remove her implants. Once they were removed, she would be pain free. My client did not have the sustainability to keep the invasion out. She had the skill, the logic and the understanding. Yet without inner-strength and inner-power they come right back in.
The pain may ease or dissolve for the time being, but nothing is permanent and energy changes. Everyone is different and unique to their own energy. As we clean up one layer, another one appears with different energy implants/signatures. Therefore, be aware of cookie cutter statements to emotionally hook you. We need to go deeper than the conceptual state of the mind. People are often manipulated through the conceptual mind. According to author David Roam, “The Conceptual mind is very good at identifying parts and putting different parts together in new combinations, but it is not good at holding a sense of the whole.”
Because of these significant changes I have experienced through Vipassana technique, I decided to understand the ancient wisdom on a deeper level. The late Vipassana Teacher, SN Goenka, explains Vipassana meditation and how different programs work within our system. Negative defilements of the mind are layers of accumulated energy from this live and past live times causing pain and suffering. The negative defilements are stored in each cell of the body causing the sensations in the body to react causing imbalances. This in turn, accumulates more non-beneficial energy to be used as false light realities. We give consent by our triggers, the very reaction, activates the sensation with strong current taking over our Free Will. Which is the root of all addictions.
After eon’s this accumulated energy takes shapes and form within the ethereal body and open doorways from other realities depending on the vibration of the form. It has the potential to attach or morph inside a person. I have seen dis-incarnate bodies, machines, spiders, maggots, octopus creatures, snakes, parasites, viruses, archon, reptilian, demons, draconian, animals, and archetypal imprints, satanic ritual, rape, genocide, torture chambers, that we’re entrapped into. Unfortunately, the manipulation on the planet has enhanced these pathways way to produce more inorganic forces. However, manipulation can only enter our system if there is a manipulation program running within us. The way out, is to stop any form of manipulation, even if it is a means of survival. Surrender instead and trust and know that Grace will intervene for the highest of all. It may not be what your unconscious drivers like and you may be disappointed, yet when you see it is clearing out an inorganic reality within you – the gift is priceless. Nothing is better than experiential. You can read books, go to movies, listen to stories, but until you live through it – it hits the deep parts of cellular understanding to change the quantum fields into body alignment.
We must first see where we are objectified into manipulation. The places that flattered the ego is strengthen the external outside needs is a good place to start. SN Goenka explains, that you’re playing an intellectual game, whenever the mind is involved it is wasting pure intuition. Because it’s operating on concepts, procedures, emotions, attachments, affirmations, and logic in the unrefined surface of the mind. We pull the weed at the surface/conceptual mind, but we don’t pull the root. We need to go past the root into the absolute knowing noble mind, which is a skillful art of living.
Vipassana is skill and an art. According to the Vipassana Manual the meditation takes practice, skill and discipline. To work through the four stages of the mind:
(a) kāma- consciousness is that which is under the dominance of desire prevailing in the world of sense desire. It is fourfold, thus: moral immoral, resultant, and ineffective.
(b) Rūpa-consciousness is the mind which has become free from sense-desire but remains under the dominance of the desire prevailing in the fine-material world. It is threefold, thus: moral, resultant, and ineffective.
(c) Arūpa-consciousness is also the mind which has become free from desire for the fine-material, but remains under the dominance prevailing in the immaterial world. It is also threefold, thus: moral, resultant, and ineffective.
d)Lokuttara, or supramundane consciousness-is the noble mind which has become free from the threefold desire, and has transcended the three planes, kāma, rūpa, and arūpa. It is of two kinds, thus: noble consciousness in the path and noble consciousness in the fruition.” The goal of this practice is self-understanding.
The Vipassana Meditation teaches to observe the knots of pain in the body. This technique purifies and eradicates the mental defilements accumulated over my many lifetimes. Every cell has its own memory of pain, sorrow, anger and joy. Self-observation, creates breathing room within to have the space to eliminate the emotional hooks building the energetic muscle to break the habits of the mind freeing the cellular structure while simultaneously creating power, integrating the Divine Light, resulting in sovereignty and interdependence. This means no one can come into your space and manipulate you, because you’re now clear enough to see with the clarity. Clarity has layers, the deeper you go the more you see. Yet it takes discipline, fortitude and courage.
Vipassana opens the four elements in the body (earth, water, fire and wind) they arise through the sensation of heavy, (earth), heat (fire), fluid (water) and flutter (air). Purifying these realities takes inner-dignity to open multidimensional actualities. All the while, it gives you the insight of past lives running, while optimizing your senses to deeper state which expands discernment. It allows your sensuous being to embody unknown heightened feelings, causing extremes passion or compassion. This brings profound understanding with joy, sorrows, laughter and tragedy awakening inner awareness to value yourself wholeheartedly with inner presence to anchor inner-sustainability. At this point, inner-integrity is realized, actualized and revitalizes every cell embodying energetic ecstasy.
Understanding the layers of the mind gives us the ability to understand what framework people are coming from. What consciousness is driving their vehicle? If they haven’t opened the first three consciousness and worked through them. There stuck at the conceptual mind, then they’re apt to infect other people while teaching, facilitating, supporting or healing. Remember the storefront deception – is even deceiving the handler.
As you can see if the False Light Implant removals are being performed at the kāma, rūpa, and arūpa consciousness which is in the realms of desires, immorality and materialism. The practitioner’s only can perform implant removal at the consciousness of their own mind, which is why the root of the implant may not be eradicated.
Money is not the root of all evil – Energy is – if we stay trapped in the surface/conceptual mind of entanglement fueling the evil empire. Blindness means absence of truth. Absence of truth means absence of light and absence of light means invasion.
Therefore, people or practitioners are only able to support other people depending on their own inner purification, initiations and experiences they overcame. It takes an inner-strength and discipline to being aware of lower vibrational, thoughts, perversions and immoral issues that are playing behind the scenes in the unconscious mind. Purification is a process, it is challenging to go through the corridors to overcome hell storms, traumas and tragedy. Authentic practitioners have been initiated many times, deepening through inner understanding after experiencing the complexity of energy. They have an infinite compassion. Because they understand the pain and suffering endured. It is a destructive process to see through the smoke and mirrors, eradicating untruth.
If the practitioner is still standing, then you will know their strength, integrity fortitude and inner-sight. They can see all spectrum’s, views, and possibilities with deep compassion and understanding because they value, honor and respect all sentient beings. They don’t run away from deep emotional trauma or pigeon whole people into “she or he is dark,” judgments. They don’t run from tragedy they embrace it, because they have the intelligence to dissolve the energy with total embodiment, through their own clearing experiences by facing every non-beneficial pattern with inner-courage. They don’t let anything stop them, even when their knocked to the ground, because they know in the end, there is a jewel of wisdom on the other side. Resulting in a vibrational match to the Diamond Heart Intelligence thus having crystal clear access to loyalty, authenticity dignity, and another way to embody energetic ecstasy.
Take time to investigate, obtain referrals, and reflect with your own inner guidance is very imperative in these times. Like anything we must do our homework and consider the source. It will save you time, money, and turmoil. We must examine people’s actions, intentions, agenda’s, and integrity. Do they treat you how you want to be treated? Is a good point of reference? Remember, we must value ourselves with every action, thought and ingestion.
When must look at energy and understand what we’re giving consent if we allow it in our space. To avoid contamination, we must invest in ourselves to make an empowered decision and avoid infection.
Look for the following when you are considering the Source —
- Using someone else material without giving them credit.
- Are they using someone else’s business name?
- Do you feel the copycat energy signature?
- Are they grandiose? Self-centered, or Superior?
- Use emotions to hook and pull.
- Use sexual seduction by their words or chi energy.
- Make it about the money.
- Infected with New Age Agenda?
- Falsify credentials
- Use Chi to stimulate sexual sensation
- Make False promise
- Seduce with their body
- Use ancient watered-down wisdom, and make it their own.
With Deep Profound and Organic Love,
Energetic Multidimensional Cellular Stabilizer
Archetypes attached to the False Light Practitioner: Politician, Hero, Savior, Prostitute, Don Juan, Healer, Chameleon, Black Widow etc. Teacher, Preacher, Healer, Doctor, Superman: Carolyn Mass Archetypes: https://www.myss.com/free-resources/sacred-contracts-and-your-archetypes/archetypes/
S.N. Goenka: https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/index
Dangers of Ayahuasca: http://www.metaholistico.com/2015/02/17/the-dangers-of-ayahuasca/
Some excerpts are taken from my manuscript Embody Energetic Ecstasy in the works.
Copyright © 2014-2017
Where did this concept or statement co-habituate? I want a God- fearing woman. I have seen this statement on dating sites and throughout my life. I wondered why in the hell would a man want a woman to fear God? Was it to manufacture hell on earth maybe? This produces inorganic tidal waves of dominance, control and oppression while seducing women into submission.
Through my investigating process, I met a couple of men. Since I broke up with my partner, I was not ready to be in relationship at that time. My emotional integrity was to heal the past emotions from my previous relationship so I don’t contaminate the energetic field with a new relationship.
I made it very clear with these men by setting strong boundaries that I was not interested in relationship with them. I was taking time out to heal and process from the last relationship to find the gifts, foresight and wisdom.
I found it interesting when I set a boundary they both said the same thing. “You don’t trust God and your resisting being in relationship with me.” They had tantrums around the subject. Why are they undermining my boundary, projecting delusionary false power to try and beat me into subservience? Why are they making me the bad guy?
What does God’s trust have to do with man’s trust? My trust in the Divine has nothing to do with men that I hardly know. Why have these men confused themselves with God? We must see the false god, superman, identity has created a reality where they perceive women as their submissive antidote. This keeps the heart blocked and they remain emotionally unavailable, needy, and so emotionally wounded that they use God as a weapon. I even saw a post on Facebook, it was the bible quote; “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.” Proverb 9:10. Is it proverb or pervert? The God-fearing programs have infested men with perverted mindsets, while women fall prey into submission, objectifying all parties involved.
I feel so grateful to see their illusionary game and not fall prey by being emotionally subjugated to their inner prison of indignity. Now I understand the God-fearing women program. My next step is ground and anchor to short circuit the conditioned spell because so many are under victim and predator relationships. In doing so, I reviewed my history.
In my past relationships, fear and insecurities played a major role in my life. My father was narcissistic and emotionally abusive. I attracted people to heal this karmic pattern within my blood line. After my last relationship, I saw this very clearly and walked through the fire. This experience brought in deep awareness to my unconscious blind spots and programs that were running to decode and take my power back from past life realities. This also healed a big chunk of family carnage.
As children, we associate our parents with God. The god in my past relationships are addicts, I understand this too well. I have been recovered for 18 years from alcohol addiction myself. I made alcohol my false god. As with any addiction, it is the priority over everything that results in broken promises and self-destruction tendencies. This awoke the victim in me to see clearly and how I became prey for predators in my past.
I knew I had to connect with someone that mirrored my patterns and who has also healed from her past. I called my friend Stacy, as my witness because she also had a narcissistic father. Since we have similar lives that we both have worked ardently to heal, we have the fortitude to transform the energy. Unfortunately, she also endured a tragic experience involving her marriage. They were married for twenty years and as a so called happily married couple, they taught relationship courses in their church. She was shocked! Her husband had an affair with a woman in the class, who happened to be Stacy’s best friend. Since Stacy’s husband was the pastor, he ended up¬¬ excommunicating her from the congregation and made Stacy the bad guy, which added more fuel to the fire.
Stacy was an outcast from her church. She was traumatized by her husband’s ungodly deception. It was easier for the church to control the people because of the fear driven emotions that were entangled in the mindset of the masses. In their fear, they completely justified their actions to the smaller wounded mind allowing dictatorship, which manufactured the dysfunctional thought pattern: “As long as the finger is pointed at her, it deflects any finger pointing at me.” The small mind believes this keeps the fear out of their world which is a false sense of security. Only keeping the people caged in, with denial and controlled by fear based authority. The false god system has a counterpart, making the innocent person the bad guy.
We used our synergistic experiences to neutralize the emotional warfare to bring this false infested program to energetic justice. The power of two or more is essential as it amplifies the dangerous energetic pollution fields by acknowledging the false programs. Unexpectedly, artificial intelligence (A.I.) was interjecting and violated our space with their electronic misaim and tried to stop us from connecting to ground the god-fearing program out. Our phones would not work and we could not hear each other speak. We tried home phones and even Skyped but neither worked. Texting was our only means of communication. Having persistence forty-five minutes later, Stacy finally got through by blocking her telephone number while calling mine. She out smarted the A.I. We knew without a doubt we were being stopped because this has happened to us many times to just be a co-incidence. Experiencing this kind of interference, we knew the program had to be anchored in the new energy. This will reset time lines and decode the false god mind set.
I knew with our heart-wrenching experiences we would both open new path ways, not only for ourselves but the collective mind. So, using our inner strength, we deeply penetrated and punctured the accumulated non-beneficial energy, like an acupuncturist, into the meridians of Mother Earth. This brings in new purified energy to dissolve the mind control program, to balance out the karmic field by creating an organic template within ourselves and bringing inner energetic justice to the world.
In Chinese medicine, the Earth meridians (Stomach and Spleen) provide nourishment and stability, transforming and moving nutrients efficiently, so that we get the most out of our food to keep the body running optimally. This helps us in digesting the food we take in. Similar to the energy we need to move through life. Our inherit right to receiving unconditional love and nurturing energy provided by Mother Earth without interference. Her energetic arms wrapped around us and stabilized our energy bodies to be in Her sacred domain…clearing all inorganic programs in this time line.
As you read this blog, please use it as a resource to take your power back from false god/narcissistic programs. This would include under-minding your intuition, being a scape-goat or being used as an object of deflection so the false god programs doesn’t bypass their own character. Twists history by using the deception as a form of emotional abuse which makes the past your fault when clearly it is theirs. This preys on gullibility and victim mindsets. Denying this behavior causes pain and suffering allowing them to not be accountable for their behavior. Then it is swept under the carpet driving pride into even more accumulated energy of grandiosity. They are opportunist, manipulator, authoritarian, and megalomania. Understanding the negative defilement stored within our conscious and unconscious by using experiences gives us the foresight to bring everything to zero-point field. This helps us be free to embody energetic ecstasy.
Archetypes attached to the False God/Narcissistic for Masculine Personality – Patriotic: Teacher, Preacher, Healer, Doctor, Hero’s, (Superman, Batman etc.…), Victim, Saboteur, Martyr, Damsel in Destress, Addict, Prince and Princess.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MsRPEab5-TM – Fun video – The Bad Guy – A must watch!
http://www.fabriqspa.com/whats-in-a-face/ – Chinese Medicine Resource
With Deep, Profound and Organic Love,
Energetic Multidimensional Cellular Stabilizer
God Fear Women Video/Discussion: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8zp6E5-wHA&t=13s
Some excerpts are taken from my manuscript Embody Energetic Ecstasy in the works.
Copyright © 2014-2017
Within any relationship there is a dynamic that we must examine to see if we have built a foundation that is either based on illusions or the denying of oneself.
As we travel into the infinite mind and the corridors unravel, we see all players, all sub-personalities, and all identities. Many are associated with the webs of co-dependency that make it all about ‘me’, therefore, we are not seeing the omnipotent self.
In some cases, one or both partners, do not choose the relationship. When one does not commit 100%, it drives the emotions through the rocky road of insecurity. This results in some form of control, because fear is operating on a level not yet seen. How do we unravel the turmoil of the mind, in order to discover where the inorganic energy is being affected by the fear virus?
Let’s use an example where one partner is consistently choosing work, addiction, friends, or even sex with others over his partner. However, perhaps he dashes in for a quick fix of emotional care, maybe a little sex, and is off again into his fanatical world of outside pleasure, thus making it about the “me” and “my” needs … resulting in separation, agendas, or conquer and divide energy. Meanwhile, his partner is left in the web of confusion. Wondering why something so spectacular has been polluted with forces outside of themselves. (Note in this example I used the masculine energy, yet it works both ways.)
Our Spirit is constantly showing us the way out of the corridor to grow our wings and fly. One must ask themselves, why would the partner I am with, not choose me? What am I not giving myself? What is my partner showing me? What belief am I identifying with? Am I comparing? What is it about me that is not enough? Is jealousy involved? Whatever identity I am wearing is it causing duality within myself? Is there a blind spot of negative energy running the show? That spins into crazy resentment, blocking precious heart energy. At the same time, is it choking my life force with more blindness? All to fulfill an outside need that only I can fill.
As a society we have been heavily conditioned with the hero’s journey movies to be the chosen one. We feel a sense of relief, knowing in the end that the hero survives and helps those around him. With this type of conditioning, we choose the outside forces to make us whole; we fall for the fantasy, and identify with the characters in the movie. This produces a misleading heroic journey, living a life filled with masks, hoping to find the maiden to save. We go through life with an upside down map – not knowing which way is north or south. Our confused perception wonders why our fanatical world hasn’t come alive. We deny ourselves, with a sense of abandonment or self-rejection, repressing even more emotions, resulting in a system full of sludge. At this point our life becomes murky and falls apart; we are then caught in a downward spiral. Unfortunately, shame and guilt attach to the false identity, as a means to shield our selves from the painful reality of delusion. We then punish the person we love, because they did not meet our self-absorbed game called the hero’s journey. Fortunately, energy can be transformed as long as we’re willing to look deep within and face those parts we have denied.
The first place to start is by becoming emotionally available to our self. This will dissolve the heavy unconscious imprints that are keeping us bound in pain and suffering. We’re able to find deep compassion knowing that we were subjugated as children. We were wide open, allowing the conditioning to start at a very early age.
Removing the conditioning takes courage, to find and examine the energetic structure of the patterns in the mind, requires consistence focused awareness. When we have a very strong will to heal, sometimes we unconsciously set up a stage to expose the buried land minds to find the gold inside. That’s exactly what my husband Rick and I did. We have what some people might term an ‘open’ marriage. But it’s not. Nor is it polyamory, its a supportive creative monogamy partnership for these intense times. It is a dynamic “out of the box” relationship to meet the needs without government interference. We have been married for twenty-six years, but now feel that our karmic circle together is complete and it’s time to close the term marriage and let go. However, we both live with autoimmune diseases, due to a sequence of unfortunate events, and have agreed to stay together and support each other as friends. Rick wants to support me because he deeply cares for my well-being. However, he is no longer interested in an intimate relationship. He is aware and has made the choice to not to go deeper into himself on this level. Therefore, we have become energetically miss-matched.
Burning our old marriage contract shifted the energy and opened the door to unity, community, and self-love. We no longer feel we are in a marriage contract with each other. We don’t need a middle man to file divorce papers. We’re creating something new to up-level our consciousness by different experiences to wake up our subconscious minds. Standing alone for the first time in years gave us a view we had never felt before. We were so neurotically enmeshed with each other that we knew on the highest level that it was time to untangle the strands of co-dependency. Not really understanding where our lives would go, we recognized that we would find what we needed to grow deeper into our True-Self.
When I least expected it, Jason entered my life as a new character in the cast I call my life. It was like nothing I’d ever felt before; it felt as if the doors of enchantment opened and pulled me into the passage of self-discovery so that I can find those stubborn streaks and one day reflect to the world the organic power of my True-Self. It only made sense that we become one family, supporting each other in whatever way we could. Rick totally and willingly surrendered our relationship to Jason, somehow knowing that the relationship would explode in the shadows of dominance, control, and oppression. He provided me with another new and different opportunity to grow and learn.
Jason and I both had work to do to clear our negative attachments. Equality, trust, and equanimity are the truest forms of our organic nature; this means loving oneself so deeply that nothing on the outside has the ability to cause pain and distress. Doing so will create an encapsulated field with the inner masculine holding the inner feminine, and allowing her safety. Meanwhile her emptiness has the ability to be completely whole even among the wild fires inside. This takes deep self-love, melting blocked emotions to become the alchemist, turning her into energetic golden waves of ecstasy.
Jason and I agreed that our unconscious and conditioned mind, were causing problems. We wanted to work on the constant interference, programs and monkey mind. Just when we found ourselves, the doors opened to our past lives. This only fed the sea of flames fueling our emotions, which is perfectly designed to clear our energetic field on our journey to wholeness.
All three of us know that this is the key to freedom. This dynamic will bring entrapped inner child wounds to the surface; most don’t see this until there is a place of structured safety. We found it takes a family to raise the inner wounded child into maturity and while all three of us explored into our own Hero’s Journey.
Of course, this dynamic brought emotional wounds to the surface. Jason felt like the third party on many levels, as his inner child felt excluded. Until he loves and honor himself, his fear will continue to cause separation within the relationship with himself and with me. Jason chooses to be in for a while, yet I am not the priority in his life. He finds ways to deeply open my heart, makes promises to change, and give me hope. Yet, somehow things would change. Jason would leave me for a job, family, or the most painful of all – connecting with other women friends on an intimate energetic/emotional level. Naturally, I feel rejected, abandoned, and scared as the fears well up inside. All I want is to be chosen by the man I love, however, it’s too unsafe to commit fully and be by his side without Rick. Meanwhile, Rick held space for us to see how wounded our inner child’s minds, were. Coming from similar backgrounds, we both had been scarred from abuse. We experienced similar upbringings and were also caught in the cross fire of our fathers’ womanizing and our grandfathers’ pedophilia.
What does one do? Pull out the tools from the physiology of the patriarchy paradigm and call it red flags and put up boundaries? Take anti-depressants? Do we fall in the victim game and blame? Do we call it quits because we aren’t getting our emotional needs met?
Or do we stand in the fire and see our love for each other? Taking responsibility and accountability for our own emotional unavailability? Are we willing to see our projections of fear? We soon recognized that we had been punishing one another because their scars run deep. Blinded by confusion with our judgmental swords and found it too painful to be at war. We both, shut down our hearts to our own Hero Within. It is impossible to save another, without first saving ourselves. As we grew spiritually and emotionally we realized that the only way out is within, by being our own Hero. This is the true Hero’s journey.
How does one become ‘their own’ Hero? One must acknowledge where they are falling for the illusion that the hero is outside of themselves. It is easier to look on the outside – yet it is hugely rewarding to look within.
Each partner must do their part to embody the field of ecstasy. It is easily tainted with strands of toxic emotions. One cannot do the work for the other. If you’re ready to step up to this courageous inner awareness – be ready for a challenge, an adventure, and ride the tidal waves of intimacy. It will give you the intelligence and passion to remove the deep emotions that are blocking your heart.
By asking questions we open the energetic field for healing. Where do you avoid being the parent to your inner child? Is it work, an addiction, the next relationship, hobbies, family or friends? Notice if the fallen hero has an emotional wars inside. Is it numbness? So you don’t have to feel the energetic weapons stemming from your own mind? This will only result in creating layers of more armor around the heart, allowing outside forces to play the game of fanatical attachments. Not choosing yourself is playing the game; it poisons the mind allowing in external inorganic pollutants that destroy relationships by sabotaging the Hero within. By being the victim to your own fanatical grandiose hero projecting out with emotional needs.
Would it not be better to stay in your own domain and be in mature observation? There one has the ability to sit in meditation and actualize their emotions by feeling the sensations that arise in the body. This will allow the Divine Presence of their Higher Self, their Spirit, to love and hold their inner child. Taking such loving action in it’s self, encourages the inner child to feel safe by feeling seen and included. It also alchemizes the fearful emotions, dissolving them into their True Source. This has the capability of melting the emotional prison walls, creating space in that moment; then the Hero’s Journey stops being a game, because we are choosing our own inner Light. We then shine with true Heart Essence – radiating at a frequency of Divine Ecstasy.
At this point, both Heroes are already whole in their entirety, with no attachments, only organic cosmic waves of purified delight. Their purified Hearts opens wide to their Loved One. The orgasmic electrical field transmitting through the meridians in the body is causes a planetary resurrection, awakening the world to a new profound journey. Choose the Inner Hero’s journey … the time is now to be Free!
With Deep, Profound and Organic Love,
Energetic Multidimensional Cellular Stabilizer
Some excerpts are taken from my manuscript Embody Energetic Ecstasy in the works.
P.S. Here is the link to the youtube video discussing this blog in deeper detail: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6BSzRiimtbc&t=126s